Monday 26 May 2008

Shadow

SHADOW
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1. a dark figure or image cast on the ground or some surface by a body intercepting light. 2. shade or comparative darkness, as in an area. 3. shadows, darkness, esp. that coming after sunset. 4. shelter; protection: sanctuary in the shadow of the church. 5. a slight suggestion; trace: beyond the shadow of a doubt.


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Richa (66)

Famine, Tsunami, Floods
Hunger clawing at the intestines

Bombs, Attacks, Guns
Terror numbing the mind

They tell me
I live...
...in the shadow of death

I refuse
to give up
To give in
to such morbidity

Rain, Thunder, Sunshine
The celestial music loud yet mild

Flowers, Butterflies, Rainbows
The joyous laughter of a child

I tell them
I choose…
…to live in the shadow of hope


Santonu (117)

The blue line at the horizon was captivating, fading sunlight and the dark cloud hovered around me. The sun was setting. The shadows of uncertainty grew with the shadows of the trees, I was bone tired, the last man standing at the battle field. I sold my company today! The one I built with my own hand. Warm tears were flowing through the cheeks. I was waiting for my friends to come and sit besides me, quietly, but they never came and their shadows danced and mocked at me. I am tired and alone today, standing under this dim light I talked slowly with my shadow for long, it too deserted me as the darkness set in.


Mickey (120)

“Mickey, don’t you go out now”, shouted Dadima, “not till the eclipse is over”
“But Dadi, this is my playtime.”
“The God is in trouble and you want to play, stay here and pray with me.”
“What trouble Dadi, it’s just a solar eclipse, moon’s shadow falling on earth.”
“That demon Rahu has engulfed the Sun, and you say it’s just a shadow.”
“But Mom says…..”
“You and your Mom, She also never heeds to my advice.
Last eclipse, she argued it’s just a shadow.
You were in her womb, and despite my warning she went to her college.
Look what happened, you were born with this defect.”
I could feel it heat up as she pointed towards my tail.


Dok Saab (100)

A small bush it was,
old and stunted.
It had been there
always
for so many years,
calm dull bush,
just surviving.
I had never seen
it go dry,
shed leaves
or, flower.
*
But today,
suddenly
it was struggling
to survive.
Exposed.
Unaccustomed
to the rays of the sun
its leaves wilting.
Used only to cool breeze
it seemed to uproot
as the hot gusty wind blew.
*
But to me
it was more alive
today.
*
Even though
it had always
seemed to lived
under the shadow
of the banyan tree.
The big banyan tree
which fell
last night.


Sowmya (120)

"Can't believe this Swati! Look at yourself", Gayathri was fuming.
You have nothing left. Your children, job....why did you give up everything? For Arvind?
Gayathri thought of the enthusiastic and bubbly Swati who charmed everyone around her. People fell in love with her inspite of themselves. Everyone wanted to be with her since laughter & fun were guaranteed. Then she fell for Arvind….
Looking at her pale and spiritless sister, Gayathri could not help screaming, "What have you done to yourself? You were not like this".
"I loved to talk, Arvind liked silence. I loved my job, he felt threatened. I wanted children, he was not interested. I loved sunshine, he preferred darkness. All I am now is a shadow".


Coffee is my Poison (120)

The shadows don’t leave my dreams, my life. They chase me.

"Any female friends? Generally girls have girlfriends?" asked Dr. Singh, my psychiatrist.
"Not really."
"Why?" he persisted.
I didn't reply.

I'll tell your parents, I'll lie and they'll hit you. Do what I say. Touch me.
Here, and here... caress me. Act like you want me.
My six year old mind felt too sick to think. Ever since she hit puberty I was suffering the consequences.
Girls I found, even when I grew older, could be such FUCKING bitches, and unapologetic about it. Better being lonely than "friends" with them.

I turned on the lights, in my heart and my mind...
The shadows, will flee. I won't suffer them.


Yuvraj Jhaa (118)

Blank stage. Hard sunlight.
Remaltron — wearing posh clothes.
Stangtron — wearing middle class clothes.


(Remaltron) —sweating— There is something dark…really dark…at night it engulfs me…it takes over…its everywhere.
(Strangtron) —calm but curious— Where is it now?
(Remaltron) —further sweating— Look behind me…it follows me…it will follow me till eternity.
(Strangtron) —loosing his calm— WHERE is it?
(Remaltron) —without turning— Look…it must be somewhere.
(Strangtron) —angry— There’s just your shadow!
(Remaltron) —fear takes over— Yes!…is it there?…is it near?
(Strangtron) —alarmed— What is wrong with you?
(Remaltron) —speaking low— Its pitch black, and when it seeps into me after sunset…(weeping) it takes over.
(Remaltron) —speaking to himself— Its nothing…nothing but your religion, that has devoured you of beauty…and instilled fear.


Sarang (120)

Lallan sells pirated CDs on a carpet at Gandhi Putla Chowk. A booming business. Teenagers flock in for the latest movies. But that’s not the real secret of his success. They visit repeatedly for the blue-films he hides under his carpet. They only have to say ‘Bapu’, the code-word for BP, and he produces a bunch of them with mouth-watering pictures and provoking titles like – ‘Sali, Puri Gharwali.’

‘How do you manage it?’ a man asked astonished.

‘The kind shadow of this statue of Bapuji protects me from sun,’ he answered.

‘No, I mean this illegal business.’

‘Ah, that I do under the kind shadow of cops,’ he says spitting aside. ‘I give them five Gandhis a day.’


Nandini (120)

Seeing his wife laugh with her childhood friend, a shadow of doubt appeared in his mind. Gloom descended, he started to waste himself. Work filled late nights, shutting out of loved ones, the shadow turned to depression.

Wife’s anxiety grew, and he ended up visiting a doctor.

“Tension” was the doc’s verdict.

“Why” was wife’s reaction

Silence was the man’s defense.

One day, after another sleepless night, he glanced at the mirror and saw a mere shadow of his former self and a big shadow covering his mind.

Enough! he decided. He pulled back the curtains, let the sunshine filter through the room, and his mind. He had to get the lighting right, illuminate his mind, to vanquish the shadow.


Juhi, the Fragrant (120)

“Mooooom!” My 2 year old son was running across the playground as fast as his pudgy little legs could carry him, and shouting louder than his lungs would ever have allowed.
“What?! What happened?” I was terrified that something had happened to him, while I was gossiping with that no good Swati! “Did someone say something to you? Did you fall off the swing?”
“Swing?! Those are for GIRLS! I am a BOY.” Declared my almost a metre high son.
“Oh?!” I sighed. “Mom…” inching closer he whispered “there is someone following me.” “Oh?! Who is it?” I looked around wondering. “Not up, look down” my son admonished. I complied and burst into peals of laughter. It was his shadow.


Ruchika Bajoria (110)

While traversing the pathways of the moors, he didn't pause to appreciate its beauty. If only he hadn't been such a rash fool. He should've spoken with care. If he didn't get there soon, it would be too late. The brewing tempest outside, articulated his inner turmoil.


He entered her chambers stealthily. Head bent in thought, her back towards him, she was the embodiment of ethereal beauty. He moved closer and his shadow fell upon her. Fear constricted his throat as he reached for her. She crumpled in his arms. Lifeless and sunken, there were shadows under her eyes. In her death, she was a shadow of her true self!


Lord Summer, the Stallion Poet (111)

To the distant land of Far-far-away
I left once in the morning all alone
The road was empty like a bald human’s head
Boredom was deep in my bone

‘What a dreary trip, still two days to reach,’
I whispered feeling sad
‘Yes, O yes! You’re always so right,’
Someone answered… scaring me bad

I swung my head from side to side,
‘Who’s that?’ I cried out shrill.
I jumped up high, when my Shadow answered
‘It’s me, O Stallion of Steel.’

I ran hard and straight, right till sunset
And there I was, at Far-far-away
My Shadow sniggered, ‘Thank me later for the ride.’
‘We’ll meet in the morning anyway!’


Mandappa (116)

"Shadows"
Its hours before sunrise
Hours after the fireflies
When reality fades away
And the shadows come to play

It's four in the morning
And the dawns not breaking

Mind numb from sleeplessness
Sleepless from numbness
Colours begin to go away
When the shadows take over the day

It's four in the morning
And the dawns not breaking

Dizzy, tipsy from the night over
The bed and sleep, still a distant cover
Headaches will eat into your day
Until then shadows will drive your way

It's four in the morning
And the dawns not breaking

The shadows in my head
The shadows in my bed
The shadows of reality
The shadows that won't let me be

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Rajat Mukherjee (120)

The shadows of my past haunt me; I have failed, over and over again. I still don’t know how I turned up like this, tormented by the despot within, shackled by my senses, inhibited by my own presence, catatonic, I have failed, oh the shadows, I fear them.

Once I thought of winning, I failed, once I thought of loving, I failed, once I thought of redemption, I failed, now I think of living, and I know I shall fail, again, oh the shadows of my past. I fear them, oh the shadows.

I retrospect, all seem nothing but a lay of failure, euphony for others, a swan song for me, oh the shadows, I detest them, I fear them.


Amey Mujumdar (94)

I am the feared obscurity.
Keep away.
But if you are beaten down, I am refuge.
Come to me and recoup.

I am the last place desired.
I hide losers from the brightness.
I shelter them when they are low.
But they survive to step out again.

I have a shifty nature.
I am small when heat is high.
Long when it is low.
But I am with you.

I am the meanest veil.
I shroud your success.
But step out of me and there is light.
Where I am, there is always light.

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Thursday 8 May 2008

Hope




Hope




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1. the feeling that what is wanted can be had or that events will turn out for the best: to give up hope. 2. a particular instance of this feeling: the hope of winning. 3. grounds for this feeling in a particular instance: There is little or no hope of his recovery. 4. a person or thing in which expectations are centered: The medicine was her last hope. 5. something that is hoped for: Her forgiveness is my constant hope.


Coffee Is My Poison (106)


AnYwAy...

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all our lives,
we plan and pray
things may not work out
we dream, anyway.

.
look at the divorces,
loves taken a backseat
more 'me', less 'us',
we wed, anyway.

.
we hold our pets,
too close to our hearts
eventually they die,
we love them, anyway.

.

we study hard,
burn the midnight oil,
we may fail exams,
we try our best, anyway.

.

life’s often hard,
putting a foot forward,
waking up some mornings,
don't seem worth the discomfort.

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in those hard times,
it picks us up,
it never leaves us,
not until we let it so.

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its hope it is,
that makes
us live, anyway.

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Yuvraj Jha (119)



The wicked winged satire on optimism
Is placing its claws on our jaws
And leading us astray
In the arms of death.
.
Any moment we die is the sacred hour
There is no hope, no soup to turn sour
Hope comes with black wings that devour
The little lost girl hopes for the strange hour
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We bring the mist of hope in this world
Through the event of our birth
And live in perpetual despair.
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Hope for the forests of the night
The dead night, that sleeps
In the calm of its existence.
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“We got our final vision by a clap”
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Embrace the gloom,
This night we shall swim
Unannounced
To the kingdom.
Not with hope
But with wine.
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Nandini Sen (120)



Miraben nurtured a hope she’d always live in the ancestral bungalow, but her husband sold it and shifted into a flat.
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Miraben hoped she’d have two children. However, husband’s want for a son, ensured she produced three daughters before a son.
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She hoped her children would go abroad for studies. However the eldest dropped school and eloped with neighbour’s son. She hoped her other children would go for big fat Indian weddings, but one didn’t marry, another did a registration. Her son married a foreigner in church.
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On her deathbed, Miraben’s husband remarked none of her hopes were fulfilled. She smiled saying her ability to hope hadn’t diminished. Even in death she hoped her quality of life would get better.
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Dok Saab (120)


"Is there any Hope, Swami ji?" Rukmini was looking expectedly at Swami Ji.

"Beta, where there is Faith there always is Hope."


"Hopeless," Doctor Sweta's remarks were still ringing in her ears, "You have no chance."


"But Swamiji, the Doctor said it's impossible."

"Nothing is impossible for those who believe.

Just apply this bhasm on your husband's forehead every morning.

Soon your house will reverberate with a baby's cry."


She returned from the ashram, her heart full of hope.

Rohan was anxiously waiting for her.

"Biwi, I have decided, we are not going in for IVF.

It is so uncertain."

"But Swamiji said…."

"Leave Swamiji alone, we are going to adopt that cute girl we saw last week at EHSAAS."

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Juhi (61)




The barren land hid in its depth a creature so dreadful, that even Pandora wouldn’t let it out. The beautiful girl in white scrounged for it. Her hair disheveled and her eyes wild, she dug her small fingers into the merciless sand. Suddenly, her face lifted and her misty blue eyes reflected it. She had finally found it. Her lost hope.

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Ruchika Bajoria (116)





I gazed out the window at the parched land craving the elixir of life – water.

A silent prayer heavenwards, a furtive glance towards the sky, an earthen pot on her head…she made the journey towards a pond which had almost run dry.

Why did she even bother to go when disappointment was assured?

With my curiosity peaked, I beckoned her. Folding her hands in a show of subservience, she entered The Grand Hall.

"Jee Hukum."

"Why go to the pond knowing that it is dry?''

With an unidentifiable look in her eyes she said "What sustains you now that Hukum is at War and you hear no news? It is hope that sustains us both."
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Shantaram (120)




Rocky: ‘I was hopin’ to talk to you for a while.’
Rita: ‘Sure. Shoot away.’
Rocky: ‘Ehm, erm, ehm…’
Rita: ‘Oh. My reply is, err, urk, err…’
Rocky (laughs tentatively): ‘Nah, I mean, I was hopin’ to take you out on Saturday.’
Rita: ‘And?’
Rocky: ‘And hopin’ we’d have dinner.’
Rita (smiles meaningfully): ‘And?’
Rocky (all charged up): ‘And… hopin’ we’d go to my place for a coffee?’
Rita: ‘Wow!! And?’
Rocky (swallows): ‘And… I have a nice couch. I was hopin’… we could use it?’
Rita stares angrily.
Rocky (dumbly): ‘What say?’
Rita (stomps away): ‘I hope you were a pig.’
Rocky (gazes): ‘Yuck! She fancies pigs to do it? Hope at least on woman on earth was normal.’
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Sneha (52)




Is the consciousness
constantly giving me
strength to live?

They say this
world lives on
hope

Perhaps the highest
four letter derivative
that keeps us ticking, ticking
and alive

Hope is life
that overpowers
strife
that keeps hurting like
a knife

Have hope
for a better world
a better tomorrow
that's yours.
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1st RaY Of tHe SuN (120)




Sometimes, Secretly, She Would Wish… Closing Her Eyes… Collecting Her Broken Self… Putting The Jig-Saw Together… She Hoped No One Would See Her Tears… Prayed That The Smile Fooled Others….

Hope Is What She Clung On…After Every Broken Thread Of Trust… After Every Lie That Rocked The Cradle… Every Deceit That Shook Her Faith.. She Gave Another Chance.. Hope Ruled Her Mind…

The Phone Calls Continued…. The Late Nights Prolonged… The Slight Red Appeared Now-&-Then… His Smell Seems Adulterated…. Each Night, Making Love Felt A Distant Memoir… Fake, Dreamy, Stranger…

She Assumed The 2 Drops Would Just Make Him Ill… A Chance To Care, Another Awakening Of Long-Lost-Love.. But The Thought Went Wrong… Fatally Wrong… And She Hoped to Survive…

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Sarang Mahajan (120)




The speck in the ocean was a smoking ship. The dot that moved away from it was the last man to jump out, Captain Demero. There was no room for him on the fleet of boats moving away with the crew, not without sinking one of them. But he did not need any. He had a plan – use the plank he had as a boat and his hands as ores. When the plank gets too wet and sinks, swim. Swim till the last bit of strength. When the strength is gone, bring out Mara’s picture from the pocket and hope it is intact under lamination, for that would be his last hope to cross the hundred miles to home.
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Maggie (2)


Fools Hope!

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Sowmya (105)


"Hope we can be friends", she said. His heart skipped a beat. His most cherished dream was to come true. They became friends, talked, laughed and cried on each other's shoulders. "I think I want to take this further", she said. "I hope u agree". It's a perfect world, he thought. He lavished her with attention, love and care. When she smiled he was ecstatic. I want to get married. Hope u agree. That's what decided he would tell her that day. "My parents found a guy from USA, a millionaire I think. I hope we can still be friends", she said. “We can”, he.

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Amey Mujumdar (120)


Backache was gnawing Murari today. His old body lying in a cot wasn’t tolerant anymore. It wouldn’t let him lift his head an inch. But he had to. Somehow. Anyhow. There had been a sound at the door. Someone had pushed it open.

Moving hands aside might help, he figured. But it didn’t. Then legs, perhaps. But nor did that. So there was only one way now.

He jerked his head up; pain singed him. It won’t leave him for hours now.

But he had managed a glance at the door... only to find it was just the wind, not his son who had left him sick and broken years ago.

But he would come one day. Murari would hope.

Mickey (120)




This was the seventh time I had climbed to the tree-top.
It was brown and yellow as far as I could see.
I scanned the sky, not a fleck of cloud was around.
It had not rained since more than six months.
Kuano had never seen such a severe drought before.
Trees were drying, animals dying with hunger.
Kids were thirsty but the village well had dried up.
Worrying about them, don't know when I slept on the branch.

A cold draught woke me up.
The sky was dark, clear, and cloudless.
But the air blowing from west was cold and wet.
Suddenly I saw a bolt of lightening strike the horizon.
A ray of hope glimmered in my heart.

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Rajat Mukherjee (120)



I touched around, four walls, no doors, no windows, was dark, I felt smothered and trapped, as if I was unwanted, detested. I wondered how I made it in there, someone said, I was born in it. I asked, “What about others, are there others like me?” They said, “Yes, there are many, more than you can count”, I asked back, “Are you one of them?” the voice said, “Yes I am. Just the room adjacent to yours”. Couldn’t stop from asking, “How are we alive without light, air, food, water”? He said, “The light is in you, we eat, breathe and drink it, we call it HOPE”. I sat down silently hoping to make it out of there someday.






Konfessioner Singh (83)



Dear –


“I wished. I wished as hard as I could, on every shooting star and every falling leaf…that…but…anyway.

So tell me, do your cold blue stars weep?

Is that what these mean?

… these paintings, they are stairways to you. Unending…are there any turns?”


From what I see, you now walk my roads. These postcards you send, the pictures are not enough. Say something. Run for me. Tell me I don’t need to… hope.


since forever,

S.


p.s. Even La Cienega once smiled.